the sociologist returns

yes, i know, its been a very long time! well internet connection is scarce now that im back in good old malaysia. and i am extremely picky with keyboards so i will only use my laptop to update my blog...seeing that my aunt has now gotten the USB Maxis 3G Broadband thingie, and she has been out the whole morn, i thought why not plug it onto my laptop...voila the update hehehehe

the world of the unemployed is not as fun as i envisioned it to be...well technically im not unemployed just yet, coz if i were to be on my usual summer break, i still wont be in warwick just yet heeheehee cheeky huh? oh well its me afterall...

im supposed to be searching for a job or another masters degree offered somewhere else because i dont particularly want to return to London...but ive decided to abandon all hopes of ever going to the US of A to do my masters...i guess its the GRE exams that put me off it completely...

the other day i was having this conversation with my friend over lunch, and she labelled me as such a sociologist...we were talking about poverty and child prostitution and i was blaming it on capitalism...im always blaming things on capitalism and the whole middle-class/upper-class concept because it is true to a certain extent... i agree that communism and socialism is just wayyy too out there and freakishly idealistic for my liking (and i am the queen of idealism LoL)... i mean how can a doctor that saves lives get paid the same amount as say a cashier at the supermarket? im not demeaning the cashiers job but its just, think about it...

so im not really into the whole communism bit. but then again im no champion of capitalism either. i dont agree with the way that everything is being commodified and how the world revolves around money. i dont agree with urbanisation of the developing world, pushing people out of their farms and into the cities when cities cant accomodate them...i dont agree with many respects of capitalism because it just pushes people to points of sheer desperation and to think without reason, without rationality. sometimes it scares me to know that we revere a piece of paper so much that we are willing to do anything for it... in actuality we have a machine that can print this piece of paper and we are controlling that piece of paper. so how in the world did we become slaves to it?

kinda reminds me of the jahiliyya period in Makkah...how people started building idols after idols and started to worship these idols when they themselves created it...its like we're becoming slaves to a system that we oursleves created...okay so an economist wont really agree with my logic of comparing the monetary system with that of 7th century Makkan idolatry but it was just a passing thought that i had in my mind.

so back to me being such a sociologist. i agree with my friend that i am a sociologist because most sociologist graduates tend to be super idealistic and somehow bordering on marxism. the sad thing most sociology graduates tend to get sucked into the capitalist system and be victims of consumerisation.... let me narrate to you this story...i watched this pathetic loser malay movie where the heroine was a sociology graduate (ironic huh?) and then she didnt want to get a job because she refuses to be a slave to capitalism...i dont see paralelles between this story and my own life but to a certain exten many no one wants to be slaves to capitalism. i mean like i said we're being slaves to what we in actual fact control. we're slaving ourselves on a man-made system that really on benefits a selected few... but im not an anti-capitalist. i agree with the right to obtain private-property and i agree that if we work harder than some people we deserve more than that person.

the thing is with capitalism is that it just exploits people to the extreme. we've got the raping of resources in developing countries to help the develop world become richer. the rich are getting richer and the poor are getting poorer. this gap is widening beyond what society can handle, hence the emergence of street children, child prostitutes etc etc. even being back in malaysia looking at the numerous shopping malls in this city centre i feel the gap widening, i see how class is separated just by a river... and again it frightens me... but im not all for socialism and communist revolution either oh no not at all...

im the middle way person...and for me there is a system that provides the best solution of it all, a system that is created not by man but by God...Islam provides the best solution, unfortunately no one is taking up this solution because no one truly understands it either... to be honest even i dont see someone able to carry the banner in this time and age so what am i to do? wait?

well yea, waiting is a solution but i guess we should be part of the change. no matter what little things we can do, we should do. and so by me being unemployed im really not contributing my ideas. so i have to get off blogging and go and find a way to be part of the solution not the problem ;)